dealing....

If I bite down any Harder my teeth will pierce completely through my skin..


my lips struggle trying to keep my emotions locked in

keep my mind occupied

keep my tear stained face from giving me away,

silently tho they still fall….

I miss him in ways the emotionally dis membered

only have strength to battle in their nightmares

the replica to my heartbeat now silenced

his being so far from my reach....

resting, now peaceful at 6ft

the new degrees of separation between he and I....

are breaking me

my screams of acceptance

deafening…

how did I end up here.

R.I.P KDB

self doubt

Don’t know that I can do this anymore


A couple days in silence

Allows my heart time to grow cold

Reinforce the brick walls

Keep loose lips from spilling

Secrets of sin

I’m learning to let u go

Before I ever, fully let u in…..

Confusion and disdain

Rain over my thoughts

I’m lost in the moment, and what it’s not…..

Treading through murky waters

Trying to remove ur scent from my skin

Ur heat from my core

Ur images from my memory

Our lack of communication

Is thickening

Rethinking things….

We once made floetry…

metaphysically…

images painted immaculately….

Wasn’t enough time to teach u how to

Read brail imagery…

Never been much of a mind reader,

Kept waiting to hear,

Words never uttered…..

Thought we were playing follow the leader

But u lead and are too stubborn to follow…..

It’s hard to catch u

When u keep me from seeing u fall

Security in these arms

Nothing could stop us

The limit was ours……

To be continued…..

responding....

*Flash*


Pause, rethink,

reinvent…

Let’s remember

This….



the past that can no longer be,

Expelled from my lips

Re-felt between my hips…



When did the tape fail,

So consumed by ur wings I missed seeing UR tail…..

Eyes wide shut, feeling blindly



How did we ruin such a DISATROUS fairytale,

We found its BEAUTY, in vain

There was supposed to be reinforcements on my SOLIDER’S frontline

INEVITABLY we ran out of time…..

They never came….



This EXPONETIAL equation no longer our fame,

Confused rhyme with reason,

Knew FIRE could never be tamed

Sensual AIR tried to kool the sheets

we set a blaze



left both hearts singed to the core,

seeking refuge

In another’s arms,

side liner’s……..One timer’s



Emotions subdued by an intoxications of the finest kind,



How did u lose track when u memorized these lanes

the scars in our timeline,

The curves have always been the same,

Same 2 way street

Same names…..



Here will always be home ….

sought out shelter in faith & pain …..



Thought the thief in u would sustain

always hold those MOMENTS

BUT u Allowed them to be STOLEN,

Now Only emptiness remains



When rightfully happiness should have been in plain view …..

U continued to veer right, chasing those invisible white lines

LEFt nothing to be remembered



ADDICTION they say of the strongest kind,

When I close my eyes

I can no longer hear the buzz, the hum of that machine

That had me scratching at my skin

trying to silence my own heartbeat



Does that mean after all this time

The healing has began?

Or Ended?

or simply.....

Was the real damage only in my mind?

flame shit

A2


Come follow me......

Enticed by my intrigue

craving her verbal penetration.....

this new found intoxication got me retracing past footsteps

question the accuracy of my emotional compass

and the misguided direction it has me following

this intuition...

this map…

got me lost, yet again at another mischievous dead end...(a2)

(a1)

in a maze of emotions. Amazing…

No compass or map will ever lead me, guide me to a moment of emotional truth like you

my heart taking a journey my body can't keep up with.

This dead end I seem to come to...

can I break thru?

the walls that keep me...

going in the same circle but in a different direction

drifting threw each other’s mysterious faze…

getting to know the woman behind her name

*sips thoughtful, bitter emptiness from this tall glass*

Baby I want


u 2 live in this poetry….

Make fa ever in the hopefulness

of this untainted imagery,

I am seeking realism

in my self proclaimed hypocrisy,

of faith…

in the US, that I see

I want u 2 experience these letters,

enjoy the taste of my mental scenery….

I want 2 instill a sexual peace treaty

within the compilation of our plural nouns

I NEED 2 correct

YOU and I

Because it should

Read WE

I want 2 make love 2 u Phonetically….

In the dark,

secrets of morning...

Re-visit between your thighs, continue...

licking your nipples softly

w/ this bic….

Baby, just let me

Use my lips &hands

2 repaint our

LIRYCAL acts visually,

Let WE remain

trapped within,

the explicit lines running across these now lust stained sheets….

I want 2,

streak through ur memory….

and dance secularly with ur hidden inhibitions….

I WANT….

BABY I WANT…..

But first YOU have to learn to let ME

In…..