what im fighting for....

If I could go back in time
2 the us,
as one

If I could erase this
pause here
cherish some..borrowed time.
retake this moment

let us not be so guarded
with OUR emotions

u still wouldnt c whats right in front of u
even when its written
so painfully clear

I let us live freely within my lyrical imagery
but we are letting this aqaintence-ship
die distastefully

ineveitably our doubts and insecurities
began surfacing

now we sit stuck here, dwelling
on the regrets...
now re-thinking, on when we first met

of the "maybes" and "what-ifs"...
the "possiblies", and
"ohhh so and so said"

sadly looking at whats left....
and how we felt in past tense,
the worn through truths exposed...

from under feelings that no longer make sense
now laced with the "fuck its"
of demands never met......
2 remain uncontinued

please

4give me for rambling on
spitting out deranged confessions of my confusion
and secret indescrestions

thoughts of loving and not being able 2  let love in...
4 knowing and feeling
but being too afraid

excuse me,
my fingers cant catch up to the speed of
the words spinning in my head

hope u know, its....
always been you
even in those times when Im distant

Im still here
waiting, faithfully...

trying 2 conquer my fears and insecurities
many years of emotion
through it all, its always been you

in my world,
4 life,
love u 2 the bone

ink never lies.....

08/09/06 9:30 pm

Attempting 2 forget ya kiss
that from a love I not dare
let escape from my lips

how do I let go
when ur HEART battles my MIND

I stay and love u from a safe distance
losing what I fear most
the me, the u, the us....
that we bring

n a SURREAL state

that nobody will every know
many unanswered questions rest in our limbo

what and how will we ever know
what lies behind the REALLI-FATAL door.....

(Badu seem the only one to call it,)
I stay hidden deep within OUR zone

but for u who "catches my heart"
please dont let us every fall...

apart....

as I look and sing 2 u
"now what am I suppoused 2 do, when I want chu in my world"