buried treasure

In the event of their demise,

 when those beat boxes under left shoulders produce their last 16bars

 when my on again,

sometimes off again affair with music fails.

 clips of stolen moments and days to few pass by

 

 in my finally of replays,

 whispers of next lifetime will b expelled n my last revolting exhale...

Ill remember it beautifully,

 re-experience waiting patiently,

 ever so painfully

 

 revealing there is no  safe house

 I waited to long to take the bottle off the shelf,

 my remedy is gone....

 

 Accepting there is no cure for this heart-ache

 So I'm left with unjust memories

Ill revisit the creation inehbrieated-ly

 

 Allow my drunken heart to express the last traces of sober emotions left,

before closing the casket and putting destiny to rest...

leaving traces of purple kisses across their beautifully crafted mahogany chariots

 

  #darkdays

#coldflame

 #kismet

 #nxtlyftme

 #patientlywaiting

#hiphopvsr&b

mind sex

Ma let me make love 2 ya mentalz...
 let me talk 2 u sexually w/ scriptures
 get ya mind drippin' get it wet
 like u were dressed in nothing but lace

let me stroke u emotionally and touch whatz hidden deep within'
arouse u n ways u secretly keep from your girlfriends
let me take u 2 a level of intimacy....
that u have never reached b4

 allow me 2 counter attack your doubts and inhibitions about lust
 I mean your infatuation with being n luv
let me ride your curves and explore the depths of your soul
 grant me access 2 invade and make my home between your thighs
let my letters rape ya clit as u beg 4 more

my imagination paints immaculate pictures of our bodies
 together intertwined as one
as we experience more,
 more touching, more kissing
 and definitely more word fucking

 I can feel my verbs mixed w/ your nouns
 relax as I take over and explore your body...
I could get lost,
wrapped up w/u trapped n these phrases we use for love making ...

babi will u please let me?
 Let me feel u pulsating?
 let me hear how deep your yearning is?
your desire 4 me, mentally as well as physically?

 your moans letting me know we are near the beginning of my last versez end....
 as my tongue licks u verbally
I hear your screams getting louder
 sadly I know our final moment is coming
 where my lyrical adventure has CUM and made it 2 the end

Miscellaneous:

Dis misery holds me hostage,
 lethal injections of an unhealthy reality:

pretending 2 accept this dream-like feeling…
that which isn't stemming from my own inexperience
time passes by distastefully,
the minutes pass by slowly
hours last 4 eternity

the uncertainty sets in,
 makes its home in my pysche…
the hole, that resides in my heart….
.unrecognizable emotions, effortless scribbles of clearly just nonsense…

dis beautifully disastrous relationship….
let out through real frustration…l
hope viewed in future tense…

this sadness consumes me,
depressions eludes me…

irrational thoughts of an eternal sleep…
contemplating a quick suicide, through wrists cut so deep…
confusion misguides me….

So instead I bleed wit this bic…
dripping wit' BLUE ink

the insanity locked within me…

damn ya'll I surpass crying and live w/ battling the coldest misery
someone help me please!...

catch me kuz I'm falling
and have come 2 realize, this life thing got me failing miserably
insane emotions stemming from my own sad inability…

2 trust…
2 love fully…
4 ever praying like Hope's singing
"that the rain don't last"
but when it leaves
let it take w/ it the battles and heartbroken bruises from my past
bringing a new woman in me
one built strong enough 2 outlast the ridiculing…