Dis misery holds me hostage,
lethal injections of an unhealthy reality:
pretending 2 accept this dream-like feeling…
that which isn't stemming from my own inexperience
time passes by distastefully,
the minutes pass by slowly
hours last 4 eternity
the uncertainty sets in,
makes its home in my pysche…
the hole, that resides in my heart….
.unrecognizable emotions, effortless scribbles of clearly just nonsense…
dis beautifully disastrous relationship….
let out through real frustration…l
hope viewed in future tense…
this sadness consumes me,
depressions eludes me…
irrational thoughts of an eternal sleep…
contemplating a quick suicide, through wrists cut so deep…
confusion misguides me….
So instead I bleed wit this bic…
dripping wit' BLUE ink
the insanity locked within me…
damn ya'll I surpass crying and live w/ battling the coldest misery
someone help me please!...
catch me kuz I'm falling
and have come 2 realize, this life thing got me failing miserably
insane emotions stemming from my own sad inability…
2 trust…
2 love fully…
4 ever praying like Hope's singing
"that the rain don't last"
but when it leaves
let it take w/ it the battles and heartbroken bruises from my past
bringing a new woman in me
one built strong enough 2 outlast the ridiculing…
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"insane emotions stemming from my own sad inability…
2 trust…
2 love fully…
4 ever praying like Hope's singing
"that the rain don't last"
but when it leaves
let it take w/ it the battles and heartbroken bruises from my past
bringing a new woman in me
one built strong enough 2 last…".
My favorite part. Continue to be strong, mama. We got this. Support is around the corner or a small drive away.
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