rambling on.....

I suffer from a verbal asphyxiation
a delirium of mixed emotions…
thoughts taken over by fears,
of losin' her, shit got me choking…

I'm slippin' losing my grip on this mixed tape collaboration of bullshit,
of feelings…laced wit' the love that my heart drips
dreading having to learn to be secure and commit

she got me stuck here...biting my lip
got me head shaking, as the confusion sets in
my vision is just a blur of sick shit

an intoxication that my body cant fix
cant quite find the right grip
my hold just isn't tight enough 2 keep her from slip…slip…
 2 keep her from slippn away from my fingertips

this thought process is taking too long
 need 2 b sure and know what she's feeling b4 my lyrical scripture is gone
leaving me at a loss 4 words
a loss of faith…

fuk I'm at a loss of focus
making my head numb, got my heart feeling sick
sitting here waiting
got me watching with closed eyes, while my world trips….
and falls….

hoping she is my angel in disguise
but fa eva being cautious, I've already been deceived once by a replica of angel eyes…

she is supposed 2 be my rock,
the glue that binds my broken heart back together…
u know that real life shit…u know loving u fa eva…

something not likely kuz nothing last 4…

scratch that…I
 just want her 2 be sure that she is happy w/ us...together…
b/c it is her that I want in LIRYC'Z world
damn ya'll she just don't know…

wanna do this 4 as long as long permits
this woman got me open…

shit like a feign' searchin 4 tha last  hit
fuk im already n too deep

wish I could open up so she can c exactly
how much to me she really means

c the love tha I have got my heart bustin at the seams
gotta just follow through w/ my emotions, show her the real me…

2 b continued….